my thoughts...lately..

So, I was living with a guy whom I really loved as a person,because he was a great friend and opened up his arms and heart for me when I needed him the most. Last year after a good relationship gone bad, I was very very devastated and when I turned to him he was there ready to comfort me and make sure I was fine. I moved in with him and treated him as a friend, but emotions got involved from both sides, but his were a little more stronger. In the past few months he did tell me how much he "loved me" but my heart wasn't there 100%. I tried giving it a shot a few times and pretend to get jealous but I couldn't... I saw him more like a brother after living with him,because we knew our likes and dislikes. He still tried to see where this will go, so we gave it a shot....but it did not work out. I had to tell him I was moving out,going back home because I wasn't ready for commitment or anything serious. He got upset and until this day he's been avoiding me,which is fine but I hope he reads this and knows that no matter what I will always care for him,because he was the only one there when I needed someones shoulder to cry on.

Moving on in life...

My one and only...

He should know who he is...and right now he is being very caring and loving and I am thankful for having him close to me. To the love of my life,whom I met when I was only 17 ....I would like to say... no matter who I was with,no matter what I was doing , Everything reminded me of you and our memories were the best ones i've had. I will love you today,tomorrow and until forever and this time I won't let you go!

Knowing that we will start traveling together and doing things we havent done in the past together is very exciting. Ready to start a new chapter in my life...with the one who never turned his back on me.

I am very lucky to have the entire package.. Good looks, smart, gr8 future ahead and the best of all ....his asian side. Gotta loveee your japanese side. It all equals my weakness. When i see you, I get nervous all over again..and i get the butterflies... you still make me feel shy and when you hold my hand I know its forever. Your amazing and all I have ever wanted.